Up to this point, one of the sticking points for me has been that of my hesitation in becoming too confident in the forming of my own original thoughts. What if the conclusions that I reach are the incorrect conclusions?
Then I read the post on Antiquatis concerning this very subject, and the point suddenly became more clear.
I immediately thought of this scene from Babylon 5:
I must admit: Upon first viewing this scene, I struggled to understand, for I saw G'kar's own writings as a contradiction.
Then I went back and heard again this line:
It's quite simple: G'kar evolved, ethically, and it started here:"But we must reach a point where the nobility of intellect asserts itself, and says, 'no'."
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DISTRACTION. Endless amounts of distraction - perhaps the most powerful tool keeping us from evolving, from engaging the intellect, from embracing intuition. We have been pigeonholed into thinking this way, and that programming can be monumentally difficult to break.
For a very long time, I have allowed distraction to keep me from this same level of understanding. THIS is why reciprocity has been so difficult for me to grasp. THIS is why I have up to this point hesitated to begin embracing original thought. I have been missing the point, just as G'kar had been - he allowed himself to become distracted by 'less evolved' aspects of existence, and nearly watched his potential slip away, which it would have had he followed through on his actions and murdered Londo Mollari.
It is not about 'getting it right', which is why G'kar did not go back through and 'edit out' the early part of his writings concerning the fact that the Centauri should never be trusted. Leaving this intact allowed others to see the process of individuation at work, the growth of compassion and intellect, the ethical evolution of the mind. Even if a particular train of thought is not 'quite right', what matters it that we are following the path of the ethical life unit, thus laying down a solid foundation which can further be expanded upon by those that will follow.
Living life as a human being is not an easy thing, because our entire existence has been based upon lies; FROM THE BEGINNING. That makes it very difficult to find the confidence to form original thought; not necessarily because of the pressure to 'tow the line', but rather, because of the fact that one concerns oneself with 'getting it wrong'. We have been so brainwashed into thinking that we MUST make a choice between two things. You are on one side of the fence, or the other. And those on the side opposite you MUST be mistaken. I see it EVERYWHERE, everyday, in all things 'human'. And the more time passes, the more I see that there is no fence. It doesn't exist. And my thoughts on 'this subject or that' are not what others expect to hear; which, quite frankly, causes a great deal of confusion, (as with the poor fellow whose head got smashed in the 'Book of G'kar'), i.e. when you present a point of view that is wholly unexpected, one that does not come from either side of the fence, people just don't know what to do with it, so they either shut down, smirk, or get defensive. That psychological programming runs DEEP.
And I cannot seem to get the final episode of Season 4 out of my head, particularly the scene in the basement of the monastery. The old monk had no doubts about the fact that the history he was studying and preserving actually DID occur, as was recounted in the ancient writings. And, because of the efforts of folks such as he, we see that, a million years into the future, the ethical history is recounted to those on 'New Earth'. Not propaganda. Not 'ad hoc' assumptions. Simply, history as it actually happened - exposing the attempted lies of 'vested interest' (i.e. the NWO) and revealing the true intentions of the Interstellar Alliance. And the result? An ethically evolved race of humans, becoming peaceful explorers of the universe…