I always find it interesting when something like this happens... that I had stopped reading Understanding Our Mind last week and when I picked it up again this afternoon, the place I left off was directly in line with what you've shared here.Arcelius wrote: ↑Thu Sep 14, 2017 2:53 pmI assure you and encourage you that it is possible and desirable. Understand that you are not really giving anything up. Try not to think of it as a separation but rather as a joining with something else. It is a new beginning! I hope that as you look behind with hindsight that you will see that everything that is the collective is still accessible (and perhaps even more so than before) should you need it.
I really appreciate this and am taking it into deep consideration. As mentioned before, I feel that the resistance is probably due to the nature of the change I've chosen for myself. The choice was made before I assumed this incarnation. I've always known that this was the last time I'd be coming here (in this human expression) - it's just taken some time to come to grips with the scope of what this means and rather than only looking at it as a depressing departure from what has been, to also considering that it's the first step towards, as so aptly stated above, a new beginning.
I just ran a check, and you're right. Had it been disabled I expect it would have taken a bit more time/energy to reboot.
I finally... FINALLY understand how this will work as a conscious operation. It's almost a silly proposition, thinking about all the things we've gone over in the past few years, things that I could intuit the truth of but still didn't have a grounded context for understanding, and now I get to re-evaluate everything with new eyes.LoneBear wrote: ↑Thu Sep 14, 2017 3:41 pmYou were simply overwhelmed by your own intuition (the cosmic side of sensation) and ran out of space on your hard drive. Now you lack the free blocks for normal operation. Time for a Dark Night of the Soul, to upgrade the hardware. (But this time you have the option to do it consciously.)
Being able to read this and not feel the same fear or anger that I would have before is really nice. I told Spaceman the night after I booted the driver something that I don't think I could honestly have said since sometime in my adolescence... It actually feels good to be me. And that is--considering everything that I put myself through in order to get here--I'd venture to use the term - miraculous.